Christmas Abundance, Hidden in the Mystery

I was hoping for something different than what I experienced this Christmas. I was hoping for an abundance of love and companionship and warm-hearted times. But the key here is that I was hoping -- not expecting or knowing.

Instead, I allowed everything to unfold organically and stuck with what felt best. And that meant spending a lot of time by myself.

At first this was a bitter-sweet pill for me to swallow. I was a bit rebellious about it, while embracing it on some level. Eventually, after I worked through the sadness or disappointment of it, I was able to relax into what was true for: I needed this time alone!

Especially because of the sudden and large influx of abundance into my life on Christmas Eve day: my new furniture arrived.

I have been living in this apartment -- without furniture, other than a bed -- for over 6 months. Well, last week I broke down and went out and bought some. Phew. It took a while to make the decisions, but I was so elated I had a good cry afterwards. I felt proud of myself.

So when it all arrived -- huge cushy sofa, large plush chair and dining room table -- I was not elated, but overwhelmed!!

Oh I was so surprised by this emotional reaction. I thought for sure I would be crying for joy or excited and eager. Instead. Shutdown. It took about 24 hours to actually integrate this sudden shift. But what's really cool about it is how much appreciation I ended up having once I integrated it all. I cannot describe the deep appreciation I have for now having furniture. But I can assure you that the groundedness, solidity and homey feeling is truly strong. And those are what I wanted anyways.

So in summary, I'll take the longer-lasting, deeper impression of the feelings I wanted from my furniture, than the sudden elation and excitement. And in a way, this has been a good, smaller-scale practice for the massive abundance that is heading my way right now.

Thank you Universe!!

Being an example of Abundance

How can we be examples of Abundance when we haven't "arrived" yet? When we haven't gotten "over there"? Or acquired this, that or the other thing.

I'm gathering lately that being an example of Abundance is much simpler than having the material indicators -- which is all they really are anyways. It's actually carrying the inner feeling throughout any material or physical conditions. And that by carrying this inner feeling and radiating it out in love and appreciation, letting it flow through us instead of demanding things come to us, we are true examples of Abundance.

Today, as I face a quiet day -- with joyful expectation -- and expect the best of things today, I feel this truth more than ever. And yes, the physical indicators of abundance are on their way for me and countless others. But they don't need to be here, since in my now I am already there.

Funny, those spiritual paradoxes, eh? :)

What a wonderful day

I awoke this morning to a little bit of fear. Not much. Just some stuff about money and bills. Thanks to the last 37 days of playing the Appreciation Game, I simply slipped into making a mental list of what I am currently appreciating. Man, does this game really do the trick. I essentially bathe in the feeling of appreciation right from the moment I wake up.

And today is lovely. The rain is beautiful and nurturing. My tasks are light, easy and fun today. I'm making money right now, while I type and I am surrounded by beautiful people, beautiful possessions and lots of love. I really am blessed.

This perspective of appreciation is really doing a lot for my sense of abundance. I can see now what Abraham means by it. And when I am so often in this state of appreciation, I'm noticing that when things don't go "my way" I am even less phased by them.

For example, tonight I was scheduled to meet a friend who I adore. She had to go to the hospital to support a friend who suddenly needed to go. When I heard this news, I wasn't even disappointed. Well, maybe a tad bit sad. But because of my state of appreciation, I rejoiced in the increase of free-time and the freedom to go eat where I wanted and do what I wanted.

I also thought about how people vibrate out of our experience when we and they are not vibrational matches. So I took the change of plans as a good thing.

The funny thing about this -- as it relates to abundance -- is that I really do FEEL more abundant when I am in appreciation. I don't completely understand this. Nor do I need to. I just know that it is working.

Appreciation Game: Day 30

Last day of the game. It's been pretty incredible. I am soooooo appreciative of the following things:

• everything I have learned through EWI
• all my experience with real estate investing -- they have gotten me to where I am today
• all my wonderful friends
• women!
• the women I am interested in
• my delicious food choices
• my bed
• working in my pajamas, dreaming of millions!
• the notion of not batting an eye at a $2500 per night hotel room!
• ever-increasing, ever-expanding opportunities
• my success
• Flora listing today and ready for sale!
• how blessed I am

Feeling really Abundant

I'm feeling really Abundant today.

Saturday night I had a break-down of sorts, followed by a little one Sunday morning and then a beautiful breakthrough as Sunday progressed.

Essentially, I got into massive fear around my finances and a lot of "Why?" around some things that have been occurring, wanting and wishing they had been different. But what I now see is pretty amazing. I see that I am truly creating myself a steward of abundance, but in a whole different way than I imagined.

I had thought I would get all monetarily successful and shit and then be the prime example. Ya know, sail through a series of deals and start making tens of thousands of dollars a month and beyond. But people can't really relate to that. If that did happen, they'd not think they can do it themselves.

So I'm building stories. Stories that are inspiring and informative and entertaining. They wouldn't be if my stories were simply "Oh yea. I went to go do that and it worked right off the bat and now I'm gob-smacking wealthy."

In fact, my stories are deeper than just being about the money. They're about spirit and passion and the true definition of success -- joy in the face of everything.

So I am more willingly going through whatever it is I am going through, because I know it's part of the mix, all part of the creative soup, and that many people will be inspired by my experience. AND I will be gob-smacking wealthy too! Sooner than later. :)

Appreciation Game: Day 29

Wow. This game is almost over. I missed a few days of blogging it while I was in Detroit. But I still did it in my head. Today, I am filled with so much appreciation.

• Meeting A & E and everything they are doing for us
• The trip to Detroit
• My awesome friend and business partner Patricia
• ALL my wonderful, yummy, loving dance friends
• The profound love I feel when I interact with certain people
• Everything I have gone through this year, in building stories that will inspire the people I will teach about investing.
• My real estate investing business. I LOVE IT!!! Universe, heighten this experience. Make it phenomenal, amazing, exciting and supporting.
• My body, my dance and my capacity to love
• The food I eat
• My apartment
• My soon-to-be sexy, stylish, savvy, sane, sweet, silly and spiritual girlfriend.

Abundant Business Trip

Late Thursday night, I returned from a majorly abundant business trip. I must tell you -- it was one of the most incredible experiences I have ever had. In many ways, it verified what I love about the business of real estate investing. And in many other ways, it validated that I'm right on track and in-line for some serious fun and abundance.

A group of us went to learn more about this specific marketplace. And from day one we were kept extremely busy. We toured the various neighborhoods, looking at deals for about 2 straight days, enjoying nice meals and fun and giggles along the way. But it wasn't till the 3rd day that the great stuff really unfolded.

On that day, we had a meeting with a rather prominent investor there. At first I didn't know what to think of it. We talked a lot about high-level stuff: vision of the city, what the city has been doing, their need for better branding and marketing, their need for cultural centers, and our needs and desires as investors.

It was a non-stop, 3-4 hour meeting and very exciting.

The next morning, we meet up with him and his mentor -- another prominent and highly influential investor there -- and we were granted an exclusive tour around town, pointing out the dynamics of growth and the wealth of opportunities there. My head is still buzzing from the experience.

However, above and beyond the gold mine of opportunities that we encountered, what really rings my bell is how wonderful the people are. I liked them. They were cool, smart and honorable. They were eager to help and excited to have us there. We just had amazing synergy.

So today, I sit here trying to take in everything that happened and where it's leading. Quite honestly, I can't. This is because it is truly beyond my wildest dreams. Far beyond. And for that, I am SOOOO appreciative, I have no words to describe it.

My career just turned a major corner, at high-speed, with an in-flight upgrade along the way. Amazing!

Appreciation Game: Day 20

Oh, the lovely things I am appreciating today:

• a new woman in my life, who I really dig
• the taste and feel of her lips
• how massive contrast (seemingly negative happenings) can really help clarify what I want -- and then actually positively effect whole new outcomes!
• my increased desire for security, completion, fun, prosperity
• slow wake-up mornings and comfy pillows
• my ability to bounce back from adversity
• two new YL distributors and more on the way
• my first YL commission check -- $102.51!!!!
• chicken and veggies
• my business
• seller financing
• all my amazing friends!!!